Mom's Out There

So here I am after a very long week. I have had so much of an experience that I could talk about it for ages. I'll just give you the short version in an email I sent my aunt.

~~~~~~~I think that it really freaked me out in general. But when they were giving me my spinal that is when I really started to freak. I started wondering why I was doing it and if it was the right thing. I was really excited to be awake but they saw how nervous I was so they kept on giving me relaxants.Then he cut me open and started yanking on things...that was the freakiest part. I told them I wanted to be put to sleep...the mental pictures I kept getting! It was just really weird being awake and having them cut you open. They said the whole surgery would be that way the pulling and tugging. So I went to sleep. I was upset about that...I really wanted to see my uterus.

When I woke up in recovery I couldn't believe the amount of pain! They started letting me push the morphine button (bad idea!) so there I was stoned out of my mind and then on top of it I started puking. So finally at night the nurses had enough because I wouldn't stay awake or breath they said, they took me off of it. I was sad but hey I was glad to be coherent after that!

I just can't get over the pain. You have to watch out how you move and what you do constantly. Last night at home sucked sleeping because I was flat...it felt like my stomach was ripping apart. I don't have very good drugs for at home because I didn't want them but I think I should have reconsidered.~~~~~~~~

But now the whole thing is over and I feel better.

This is my last day here in Mom's Out There blog! You can always get me on my own blog 7Confessions! It was a little difficult to run this blog cause i have no clue about what you are suppose to talk about between mothers! Thank God Taylor is back.....
My last quiz : my hidden talent!!

Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others. You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around. The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it. Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!

UPDATE!!! Taylor_Blue is back from the hospital, she's feeling tired but relieved to be home!! Yeah a big shout out to our girl!! She will be back to us on Saturday till then you still have me... so here is your picture for today!
Look at those eyes!!!!! Beautiful !! This is from Taylor_blue's girl!! :)

Hi everyone!! I'm Confessing7Girl, i live in Portugal and I'm 22 years old!! I will be taking over all of Taylor's blogs this week, so keep on visiting cause i promise they will be updated everyday!! As you probably know Taylor must be in surgery right now and from here i know i can say we all wish her a fast recovery! The blog world misses you girl!You ROCK!!!
Although I'm not a mom (please don't ask me about mom's issues) I'm a daughter and i know how hard Mom's out there work to keep us happy!! I wanna make a confession and say i love you mom even when i hate you!!!!!! I know my mom wants the best for me and she is my SuperHeroine!! Every Mom is a SuperHeroine!!
So what's best to start than a What SuperHeroine Are You? Quiz! Here's my results, wanna share yours??

You Are Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"We saved the world. I say we have to party."

Ok so I found out what time my surgery is on Monday. I have to be at the hospital at 6am and then the OR time is 7:40am. I tell you I have been so nervous I want to puke. I can't even eat supper because I can't stop thinking about it. I'm also wondering how things are going to go at home while I'm gone. There is bills to be paid and things like that. This is really teaching me how to let go.

I have news for everyone, since I will be gone next week...Monday to Friday I will have confessing7girl taking over my blog for me. Just be really nice to her....she is an amazing person and I know my blog will be in good hands. But you are stuck with me until Sunday but I wanted to prepare you all!

I went for my pre-op appointment. My surgery is in two weeks today. I'm starting to get really nervous. I got a whole novel on what is going to happen and how to deal with abdominal surgery afterward. I wish they would have given it to me after they take my uterus. I had two appointments....one with the guy who is going to give me a spinal like I asked and and internal doctor. He just couldn't stop staring at my tattoo's. I had to show them all to him. I went to get blood and get a funky little bracelet that I have to wear now until after I get out of the hospital. It is so if I need a blood transfusion they know what kind of blood I need. (Very reassuring isn't it???) So the funny thing was the nurse that took my blood asked if my tattoos were permanent. And if they weren't how I would get permanent ones. You know I used to think that too but if they have a needle and ink...guess what...THEY ARE PERMANENT. She asks me how do you get it off? I said with a laser. But then I said you don't get a tattoo just to remove it later. Funny people eh???

Here's the question for the day:

You Should Get An All Over Tattoo

Outrageous and funky Because you should never have to choose just one tattoo

So here is my thought today...well I really don't have one. We got a really bad thunderstorm and it flooded everywhere. That's cool I guess. It's the Prairies so we never get this kind of rain. You can just say goodbye to my tomatoes that I planted...they are underwater. I guess they will be water tomatoes. I went through all my music on my Media Player. I listen to Fuel, 3 Doors Down, Three Days Grace and Seether. But I also like Justin Timberlake....shhhh don't tell anyone...

What do you listen to???

Have a good day. I hope to be back to normal tomorrow. Oh yeah my pre op appointment is on Monday. My surgery is only 19 days away!! YIKES!!!

Well I finally have to talk about it. My hysterectomy. It's almost a month away and I am started to get anxious. I'm 32 years old and I'm losing my womanlyness...at least that is the way I feel. I have always had problems with that time of the month so they were waiting for me to finish having children. I am done now...believe me. No one tells me that parenting gets harder the older they get. Anyways, I have my two children, a boy and a girl...they told me I could have none.

I have been having such bad dreams about it though. I didn't have c-sections with my kids so I don't know what that pain is going to feel like. It probably hurts worse than a tattoo. I like getting tattoos! I just am scared that I will go to sleep and wake up and miss the experience. I am staying awake for the surgery. He's not sure how bad my other stuff is in there so he's waiting to open me up to find out. How reassuring is that?? So I'm staying awake.

Almost two summers ago I was really sick. Like almost died sick. I had a really bad allergic reaction in my lungs. Anyways, they had to stick a tube down my throat to see how bad the infection was. I remember looking up at the ceiling and then all of a sudden I was in the hallway waking up alone. I guess it really got to me because of the dreams I have been having.

Today's question is:

What scared you the most in your life?

Have a good day...Keep smiling!