Mom's Out There

I think my arm looks amazing. I am so happy that it is finally done! And then times like today make me so mad. Does it look so horrible that people have to treat me differently? I went to pick a pack of smokes for my husband at the store. The lady looked me up and down. I was dressed up in a nice silk shirt and jeans and my makeup was done. I was just like any other person. You can see my other tattoos but of course they aren't as huge as that one. I was like whatever. Maybe she will smile and say that my arm is nice. I'm not used to having to have a conversation every time but I guess that's my own fault.

I asked her for two packs of smokes...she kinda puts her nose up at me and then asks for I.D. Now, you have to be 18 here to buy smokes so I was like in my head...you know I am over 18, I have tattoos all over the place. But I listen and get my license out. She checks it over...I am 33. So I think she has nothing to even worry about. She wouldn't give me back my license but says. We don't have that kind so I don't know what you want to do...I reach over take my license back and walk away.

Why couldn't she tell me that before she asked for my I.D.? Probably because she wanted to treat me differently. Honestly, tattoos are so mainstream now. And if I wore a long sleeved shirt and jeans no one would ever know. So why treat me that way then? It's a fish on my arm...it's not a naked woman...it's not guns...it's not a skeleton. But, even then...why do I deserve to get treated different because of my ink?

So this is my arm sleeve in it's third stage. I still have two more sessions to go.

I was at my favorite mom bloggers blog tonight, Cheaty Monkey, and I thought I better come here and send you some love. I miss talking to you all. But I only have so much of me to give.

But, I finally have the guts to talk about my tattoo. I was really excited to get my arm sleeve. I have wanted a koi fish for years now, and I know that I was ready to get a huge tattoo, I have five little ones already. So the last session, really really really hurt. I lasted maybe an hour and it was heavy duty shading. like all the green in the picture. It was tolerable...until he got to the top of the shoulder.

Someone nailed the sound for me. It sounded like a drill that a dentist uses, but on your shoulder. It vibrates like crazy throught that bone... Now, I was going in every three weeks to get work done on my sleeve. It would just heal and then I was in right away for another session. But now, four weeks has gone by and I say. Hold up...I need to wait one more week...and then I hope next week I'll be okay.

After, that session it hurt...and it didn't stop for a week and a half. Now, the hurt is like a really bad sunburn, times a million. After feeling that for a week I'm not really keen on going back. I have two more sessions left and I the last time I went into the parlor my artist was so happy to see what he had done. That makes it a little more worth it...but still super scary.

I got to get the courage to go through with it...then it will be done...and I probably will hold off getting another tattoo for about 4 years instead of 2. :)

So yesterday if you saw my movie you saw my tattoo on my wrist...so now this is the tattoo above my ankle. I really liked the picture of the frog before he tattooed it on me. He had these wrinkles under his eyes that I loved....do we see them no?? This was how bad...it got infected and if you look really closely you can see where the ink is bleeding ....which means he put the needle in too hard....He's cute...I just want to get him fixed up....

I went for my pre-op appointment. My surgery is in two weeks today. I'm starting to get really nervous. I got a whole novel on what is going to happen and how to deal with abdominal surgery afterward. I wish they would have given it to me after they take my uterus. I had two appointments....one with the guy who is going to give me a spinal like I asked and and internal doctor. He just couldn't stop staring at my tattoo's. I had to show them all to him. I went to get blood and get a funky little bracelet that I have to wear now until after I get out of the hospital. It is so if I need a blood transfusion they know what kind of blood I need. (Very reassuring isn't it???) So the funny thing was the nurse that took my blood asked if my tattoos were permanent. And if they weren't how I would get permanent ones. You know I used to think that too but if they have a needle and ink...guess what...THEY ARE PERMANENT. She asks me how do you get it off? I said with a laser. But then I said you don't get a tattoo just to remove it later. Funny people eh???

Here's the question for the day:

You Should Get An All Over Tattoo

Outrageous and funky Because you should never have to choose just one tattoo

Come back and tell me....I always want to know what you guys get....

I thought today I would share one of my tattoo's. It my most recent one...I have four...but this one means almost the most for me. It is like a ying yang sign...the dark dolphin my bad side and the colored dolphin my good side. It is on my back just under my hairline. I hope you like it....